and it was the last time we spent time together here.

and i do love every single moments with u here. gonna miss u damn much dear. yea, sy sedih sangat. tapi sy tak nak tunjuk depan dyla semalam sebab sy tak nak dyla lg sedih. she's alone there. yeah, everything happened was so unpredictable. tiba2 dyla dpt maktab for the 2nd intake even lambat sikit. mula-mula rasa nk pujuk dyla, jgn pergi maktab tu. but i knew it was so impossible. i knwe that i have to let her go. but at least we spent time together for the last time at here. and after this, maybe will see her in KL only. but dyla, we're welcome u here; UiTM Merbok. anytime dear. kalau free. mai lah sini. okay. i nk cerita about the last day. dyla decided to go to VM for celebrating my birthday since she can't celebrate with us today. it's okay. kami pun gerak ke VM dgn aqim,atyn,ryn, me and of course dyla. went to Secret Recipe to but the cake *thanks for the cake anyway. ;))* then, went to KFC to get the lunch. supposely, kitorang ada kelas on 2.10 but mmg tak sempat so aqim planned main bowling. so, gerrak la ke CS. after main bowling pegi karaoke pulak. wow, serious this was the sadest moment ever. masa nyanyi lagu kenangan terindah ngan atyn pun boleh nangis. then, balik. even tak sempat nk habiskan lagu but i still enjoyed it sbb it was the last time we spent time together. *betul ke english i?? nv mind. and now, i'm here without dyla. and everything had changed. terasa sgt kehilangan. but no matter what, i still support u. love u always. ;))

was waiting for ryn.

white chocolate mecadamia. thanks dyla. ;))

birthday girl and birthday boy.

thanks for everything my dear. love u sooo much.

p/s; to atyn and natt, pls be strong babe. no matter what, both of u still have us. FRIENDS. ;))

when she's going.

everything is gonna be changed dyla.
but i wish u good luck for your next destination.
love u sooo much darl.

p/s; i'll post about u later and about the celebration. ;))

thanks people. :)

i want to thanks for those who had wish me for my birthday last two days. 13/08. thanks so much for being too concerned about me ppl. love yeah. esp to myra, the first person that wished me for my birthday.natt the second one. mylea through natt. noni, my ex classmate. then, dyla. leho, schoolmate. izzul, dyla's. haidar, the first who had called me that night. aqim, the crazy classmate. haziq, bestest friend so far. ryn, thanks for the special post. sila ke blog ryn click disini. fs/atyn thanks babe. feeqa, i love the lipbalm, howt yawww. thanks. tirah, atyn's friend. amma, schoolmate. mizi, thanks for the special post. click sini. aisha hijazee, schoolmate. kak ya, the bestest friend ever. miss u syg. aisha, dayah, zuha, ms. yy, nadiah, mellisa NS's members. aiza, schoolmate. adek, thanks sbb wish on the special time. 13.08/1.08 pm, 13 august. razil, diba, schoolmates. sofwa, on the next day. all myspace members yg wish. roommates of course. my parents and siblings. thanks for the broadband dad! fyfa, bloggers. my cousin, sis bytie. thanks for the special post. click this. and for all yg dah wish but i x letak nama u all. thanks so much! i'm really appreciate it guys.

p/s; nak balik rumah. kenapa lah uitm tak tutup. ;((

gila gampang susah.

okay. sekarang terasa nk guna 'aku'. eh, tak jd lah. terasa kasar pulak. well, i kan sopan dan santun. *okay, xyah menipu.* apa kata guna 'i'. em, mcm okay je. tp gedik sikit. x pe. this post je okay. sbb i mmg gedik. dulu la. masa zaman sekolah. okay, apa i karutkan ni. sopan tak ayat i? boleh la kan. em, actually i nk cerita ni. about test csc td. gila gampang susah dia oh. sbb i malas study sebenarnya. okay, trust me. i baca chapter 1 je. tu pun x habis. dan i terasa mcm jwb soalan physics je td. okay, lg susah dr addmath. tp dulu x pe lah, markah test tak masuk dlm final year exam kan. tp csc mmg mcm sial. sorry la mr. adi. i cukup tak suka dgn subject ni sbb i rasa mcm dah master bab computer ni. haha. after test td, i balik bilik buat mcm tak ada pape. natt singgah bilik i jap. copy movies from my lappy. tp td laptop ni buat problem la. mengada. tp dah okay dah. dan i tak igt pun esok ada grammar test rupanya. kenapa tah, lately ni mls gila nk bukak buku. *mcm selama ni rajin kan* okay, i baru habiskan PAMA td. mkn ngan SYA, roommate i. eh x, dia mkn RUSKI. i suka PAMA lah. terasa syg nk habiskan td, sbb sedap sgt. x pe lah, dah habis pun. well, td i pergi kelas. and guess what, i pakai mask. rasa mcm hot gila. haha. tp mask i busuk gila oh. maklumlah, mask tu free. so i terima seadanya. x pe, esok i pakai mask yg i beli 1 seringgit kat pharmacy hari tu okay. mungkin x busuk kot. eh, tgk lah. ada 3 org lagi classmates i yg pakai mask. gila cool kan? tp tah pape, sbb i rasa mcm tak function. i lemas la pakai mask tu. tp still nak pakai.

the end of the story, i tengah online ni. tak tahu nk study apa for grammar test esok. mcm nk buat bodoh je. nasib baik dah lepas speaking test. okay kot. seronok je. okay, gila gedik post ni. i menyampah nk baca.

p/s; serious i rindu dyla. ;(( and roommate i, zalila dah balik ptg td. seronok oh. ;))

sebabnya, awk.

1)awk tahu tak yg sebenarnya sy dah simpan laptop ni td. sy nk tido awl sbb badan sgt2 x larat. tp masa sy baring td, mcm2 dtg dlm fikiran sy. and everything was about YOU. yes, you.

2)awk, i wish u would read this entry but i know it's impossible. sbb awk x pernah nk tahu pasal sy kan? awk x pernah nk amek tahu langsung. walau berjela2 sy type pun, it would be a rubbish for u. sy tahu semua tu. tp awk tahu x, sampai ke saat ini, sy masih boleh menangis bila terkenang awk. even awk rasa our relationship was over now. tp sy selalu fikir dan rasa, walau jauh mana pun awk pergi dari sy, satu hari nanti awk tetap berlari kejar sy balik. again. sbb it was the 3rd time u came into my life. awk, ini mungkin kebetulan tp kebetulan ni lah yg akan jadikan ianya kenyataan.

3) it was long time ago masa sy mula2 kenal awk. form 2 rite? we were too young at that time even awk tua setahun dr sy. bila sy tak yakin dgn awk, mcm2 yg awk buat untuk yakinkan sy. sampai sy betul2 percaya awk. awk, i miss every single moments bila kita balik sama2 dari hostel. esp, the moment when we stop at every KTM station because we dont want our journey become too fast. sy rindu bila awk sanggup hantar sy seberang jejantas walaupun awk kena tggu the next train untuk balik. awk, bila awk tinggalkan sy 2 days before PMR, awk tahu x mcm mana berkecainya hati sy waktu tu? tp sy tak salahkan awk 100% sebab sy yakin yg suatu hari nanti awk dtg balik pd sy.

4) dan semua jangkaan sy bukanlah meleset. awk cari sy masa sy form 4 kan? even sy dah pindah sekolah time tu tp sy rasa rapat sgt ngan awk. and even kita bergaduh masa keluar, sy tetap syg awk. awk, sebenarnya dah ramai lelaki lain yg hadir dlm hidup sy tp sy tetap syg awk. sebab sy kenal awk. sy x suka sesi perkenalan. nama sy, Rabiatul Adawiyah Sulaiman. but just call me ada. and pls spell it as 'rda'. sy benci. penat. sbb org akan spell nama sy 'ada' even sy dah bgtahu beribu kali. tp bila dgn awk, 1st day kita kenal awk dah panggil sy 'rda' bukan 'ada'. i know it's not a big issue but it was the beginning. how you makes me love u more than everything. awk, sy igt waktu form4 tu kita tak kan berpisah lg. but i was wrong. kenapa kita lost contact tiba2. itu pun sy tak slh kan awk.

5) masa trial SPM sy, tiba2 awk dtg balik dlm hidup sy. awk tahu tak mcm mana perasaan sy masa tu? sy rasa bahagia sgt2 bila sy dgn awk walaupun sy x berapa nk happy tp sy bahagia sbb awk sorang je yg faham sy. and when we broke-up again i know it was not your fault at all. dan bukan jugak slh sy. awk tahu x, sy ada 1 SEBAB kenapa sy mintak break masa tu. and i didn't tell u the reason until now. i didn't tell anybody *before i told FS and DYLA* awk tahu x, sy sanggup hilang awk masa tu sbb sy syg awk sgt2. dan sy bertambah syg awk bila awk menangis sbb sy mintak break. dan awk perlu tahu betapa sedihnya sy walaupun sy yang mintak. sounds stupid kan? it's okay because i know why i do that.

6) awk, sy x expect yg sy akan jumpa awk balik baru2 ni. betul, and sy rasa ni mmg satu kebetulan. even awk dah ada GF tp sy tetap rasa u're mine. sbb sy tahu awk syg sy. cuma cuma, bila awk ckp yg awk tak syg sy, sy faham kenapa. because i did the worst thing in your life and mungkin awk rasa it worthy bila sy pun rasa apa yg awk rasa. betul, what goes around will comes around. tp sy terkilan sbb awk biar sy pergi mcm tu je. tp sy tetap tak slhkan awk sbb sy tahu sy masih ada peluang untuk explain everything to you. kenapa dan mengapa.

7) sy tahu sy bukan yang terbaik untuk awk, sy tahu sy tak pandai langsung jaga hati awk. but at least Tuhan bg sy akal untuk berfikir mcm mana nk jadi yg terbaik dan mcm mana nk improve diri sy. awk tahu x, sy tak doa hari2 mcm mana nk lupakan awk tp sy doa tiap saat dan ketika mcm mana nk dpt kan awk semula dlm hidup sy. sebab sy sentiasa rasa yg awk akan dtg balik dlm hati sy. sebab sy dah simpan awk dalam sgt. trust me. and sekurang2nya sy tak pernah tipu awk. maybe i'm just not tell u the thing that u should know.

8) dan kenapa sy demam pun sebab awk. tp sy tak salahkan awk. maybe sy sendiri yg x boleh dan x tahu nk control myself. sy rasa sy dah nangis byk sgt smpi sy tak sihat. pelik jugak bila tgk saus dan kacang and obsessed pun sy boleh menangis tersedu sedan. sy belum cukup kuat to face all of this alone tp sy kena cuba sbb walaupun sy yakin awk akan dtg balik but in the other space in heart i'm still afraid if u'll not come back.