I just came back from University Malaya this afternoon after the Royal Debate finished yesterday. Everything is just okay since I started to accept the fate that I am the only one that have to be separated from the team. Well, I got so much fun yesterday whole day and night with the new family and I really enjoyed it and somehow I have to accept that they are the best. Yes, they are the best. Even I tak de you dalam hidup I, but still I bahagia sangat-sangat.
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Yes, I don't have you like the others but still I am happy with my life. Maybe I tak ada you macam perempuan-perempuan lain. Yang boleh jalan-jalan sambil on the phone bergayut dengan you, or maybe boleh tengok tv sambil chatting with you. Or maybe boleh hangout dengan you sedangkan I hangout dengan all my girlfriends. Yang boleh berangan macam dalam fairytale bila you hold their hand, sedangkan I hanya boleh nak berangan bila tengok cerita-cerita romantic semata-mata. Paling seronok pun, mungkin I boleh mimpi kahwin dengan Remy Ishak or Fahrin Ahmad once again. They don't have to do like what I do because they got you.
Tapi I peduli apa even I don't have you in my life? Memang lah I peduli sikit, tapi I malaslah nak fikir. Betul. Sebab bila setiap kali kawan-kawan I tanya about you, I akan cakap I taknak. Bukan I taknak you, tapi I taknak sesiapa. Yea, I belum ready for being someone in your life. Bukan sebab you adalah you, tapi sebab you bukan dia. And please, forgive me for everything and surely for not accepting you in my life.
thoughts shared by Rabiatul Adawiyah Sulaiman on 8:47 PM