I need a chance.

I always want to be a person who concerns about other's feeling yet forget about themselves. I always wish that I can take a good care of everyone's hearts. I really wish that I can join every session to strengthen my relationship with others. I always want the super extra time for my day, so that I can go to the all places without any guilty feelings. Because I used to feel guilty everytime I failed to perform my friends' invitations, since I have been too busy. I need to choose either, otherwise I couldn't choose neither.

When people talk about their bestfriends, I couldn't figure out who is mine, and I don't think people will take me as their bestfriend or even a friend. I do not know the real meaning of a real bestfriend. I failed to manage my feeling properly especially when it comes about a friendship, the same goes to a relationship. I'm not a good friend, I'm not good enough. I always hurt my friends' feeling, and I even never think about their feeling. I always show my fool to them, yet I regret my foolish behaviour.

I need to do a little feeling expression so I can tell everyone that I'm a bad person, a bad friend. Because I couldn't remember when was the last time I do something worth to show my truly love to them. I was ashamed of my huge mistake. I need a second chance to do well in a relationship. I need the second chance to get their trust on me, and I wouldn't let the opportunity to go easily. Please give me the chance, at least I'm giving a try to make a change.